Gotcha Day

We have waited so long for this day and it's here.  It almost seems like a dream.  I can't wrap my mind around what is fixing to take place.  Our family has just flown around the world to get our sweet Bria.  This day we have anticipated so long .  I could hardly sleep  the night before as my mind wondered with joy, the what-if's, etc.  Our first meeting is this morning.  We were given a LONG list of paperwork to bring to this meeting.  This meeting we will be going over what is to be expected for today and the remainder of the week.  During the meeting, I couldn't focus.  I could hear our guides telling us how important it was to have each document for this day & tomorrow but my body is so full of nerves that I can't function.  I can't believe what is fixing to take place.  In just hours, I will have a baby I have prayed so hard for. Our guides ended the meeting reminding us to be prepared for the worst and hope for the best.  Please God, prepare Bria's heart for us and ours for her.  Please give us a peace beyond all understanding!

We are now at the civil affair office where we will get Bria.  There are probably 25+ families waiting to get their babies too.  This room is very hot & loud.  There is tears of joy, tears of terror from the babies who have been placed in a strangers arms.  Our name is called first to get Bria.  Before I knew what was happening, Bria comes out of this room and comes right up to me and gives me a hug.  Am I dreaming, she is in my arms!  She responds very well to us for about 4 minutes.  After that, she starts to panic and cry.  She looks over and finds her Chinese foster sister who has shared the same orphange with her and they went to the same foster moms house for about 4 months.  Bria and Zoey keep clinging close to one another.  Over all good but this day was so over whelming & filled with emotions.

We took a bus back to the hotel.  The Dads had another quick meeting for paperwork needed for the preivous day and then they went to the grocery store to get diapers, noodles, etc.  While Brian was gone, Bria cried the entire time.  Her blank, scared look broke my heart.  She kept running to the door trying to get out.  Her face had such a somber blank look.  I couldn't get her to eat, drink or do anything.  When Brian came thru the door, she went to him.  He was able to get her to eat & drink.  She had a terrible cold & ear infection.  I so wanted to pick her up and love her but I felt she needed to feel comfort, even if it was coming from her father instead of her mother.